Hay

hope everyone had a good weekend! i did TERRIBLE i have but on like 4 fucking pounds!!! iv'e been eating like a fat bitch all weekend , the friday night drinking session had alot to do with it , hangovers always make me binge! damn ,. aw well im fasting all week so should be less then i was before the weekend! my pills should be here soon , can't wait! if anyone is thinking of buying stimerex then make sure they have ephedra in them as alot of the new stimerex don't and ephedra is what makes them work! just to let ya know :)

im so embarassed about friday night, it was a friends 21st and i was planning on having 2 drinks then taking a party pill but we ended up staying at the resturant till 11 and since i hadn't eaten much all week i got pissed very quickly, i ended up telling my boyfriend to fuck off again and again , and then threw my drink at a bouncer who is always really lovely to me , i feel so bad thats it for drinking until new years im so sick of it!! Love you girls hope your not as regretful as i am!!!!

emy xoxo!

i was guna post some pics but i can't find my digital camera! sorry!!! i keep saying i'll do it and neva do! eugh i feel so week , ive got no energy, ive ordered some stimerex so hopefully that will help the energy problem, i fasted all day and i have to go shopping for presents soon so when i get back i'll just go to bed. Im so excited about the stimerex i will tell you how it goes when iv'e started if anyone is interested.........think thin

emy xoxo!

eeeeugh i feel like such a fat cow i ate lunch AGAIN today which is the 3rd time this week! im sure as soon as it passes my lips it instantaniously makes me fatter! eeeeuugh i hate food , i hate the way it makes me feel when i consume it! straight away tho i thought FUCK? WHAT HAVE I DONE?? and went for an hours walk but still though i feel like i just ate , its horrid. no more food for me EVER! sorry to sound depressed , if this is how food makes me feel though whats the fricken point in eating? i'de rather die young and happy then old fat and depressed! no thats a HORRIBLE thing to say i didnt mean that. i'll feel better tonight when im hungry again :) love you ladies hope your all doing better than i am! i wish we could all just meet up in a bar somewhere , all of us together ,. chatting , laughing , hehe that would be cool!

xoxoxoxooxo!

 Plus me and my bf had an argument last night about my treadmill! he wants to move it into our bedroom but i want it back in the lounge! thing is our bedroom is disgusting i hate it , i hate sharring a room with a guy! but the lounge has just been decorated to my taste i chose everthing , the wall paper the light fittings the furniture EVERYTHING so i should be able to but my treadmill in there! it cost me soooo much money and i want it in a room i feel good in , you know? but he won't give in and is getting all pissed off about it , but i wont friken give in eitha!! i hate not getting my own way! who's backing me up here?????

love ya's xox

dam it won't let me! check out my journal the links are there , tell me what y'all think xoxox!

Hay girls

so today is going pretty good i haven't eatin since breakfast and i pln not to eat for the rest of the day! whenever i hear about girls fasting i get soooooo jelous! im going to try my hardest and as soon as i feel like eating i will come on here look up my fave thinspo and i should be fine! i love youtube it has the best thinspo though i hate that morbid sad shit tht makes you feel bad! i do have some wicked faves tho so i'll post em :) hold on tho i have to copy and paste it.

xoxoxooxox!

Had a reasonable day today

1 pc toast
2 cups of soup (45cals each)
1 mandarin

Got some fresh fish for tea so having that with steamed brocoli :)

emy xox

Found some great thinspo on you tube watchin vids of gorgeous skinny girls over and over really gets in your head and definatly helps stop binging! If  carry on the way i am i will defintly have the bod i want by xmas! roll on new years can't wait to fit into that size 0 bikini :)